LEAN BACK came from that back-and-forth feeling of knowing I shouldn’t go back to someone, but still catching myself wanting them anyway. It was late nights, phone calls that lasted too long, that cycle of saying “I’m done thinking about you” but still letting them crawl around my mind. Writing it felt like I was arguing with myself—half of me saying “I want you back” and the other half saying “I can’t keep doing this.”

The hook came to me first, almost like a loop in my head: back, back, lean back. It felt hypnotic, the same way toxic love can pull you in even when you know better. The verses are just me laying it out—frustration, confusion, but also honesty about how hard it is to let go when memories feel stronger than reason.

It’s not a clean love song. It’s messy, it’s conflicted, and that’s exactly how it was meant to be.